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Old Jul 31, 2020, 04:02 PM
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I have a tendency to become very hyper religious when manic/psychotic and then in a subsequent depression. The worst was when I was casting out demons, putting my hands on strangers heads to pray for them, doing absurd things because the Holy Spirit told me to do them. I wasn’t sleeping of course but I’d get up around 4:30 to read the Bible/journal/sing hymns and I was convinced I was a very spiritual vessel who had to pray exactly what the Holy Spirit told me to pray because I believed all of my prayers were granted. I was even praying “Maranatha” which means “Lord come” passionately believing I was praying to make Jesus return. I also was once so high I believed God was allowing me to experience actual Heaven on earth. When I became depressed, I struggled with a number of spiritual delusions also, most notably that I was in a spiritual battle for my life and that demons were
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Tori Amos ~ Crucify

Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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