I know it's incredibly painful What you know and how you feel inside are completely misaligned. I don't mean to minimalise any of this at all.

Just hang onto the fact you can get through this even though your emotions are telling you a different story. I don't know if this means working with your ex T, seeing a T who is liaising with your ex T, or moving on and seeing someone else altogether, but whatever you do, you have the choice. I think it's good that you're also working on doing some weekend activities and maybe try and do more stuff like that. Tell the child in you that you'll both be okay, you'll come through the other side of this.