Yes, delusional is perhaps better. Working on it.

As not everyone here knows details of, u and I have an absolutely freakish number of life similarities. So bizarre and a huge gift for me. The fact that only two people responded to my rather provocative post here suggests that this aspect of my story is yet again several std deviations off the mean. It's fine. Totally used to that. Someone has to be.

My information obsession is lifelong. I have 177 new bookmarks sent starting 2 research this new bk. Did 2 residencies. Honestly, maybe my fave recreational activity is to read massively geeky scientific publications, esp when they are either awesome or totally suck. Nothin' better. Total dweeb. Oh well.

I managed 2 sleep 4 hrs 15 minutes straight and feel ike a new man, thank u. You know, I grew up w great shame. It drove my perfectionism and created a lot of success. When I become psychotic, I am fearful, triggering preCambrian shame, causing delusions devaluing my life and self. This may explain hallucinations of doom, perhaps. Subconscious issues frm age 2. Maybe. Not very knowledgble about psychology,

Thank u so much for ur brilliant insight and elite humanity. U r truly a treasure.