I have felt this exact same way. And I keep coming back. I have made some awesome friends. I have also lost some. I never believed or knew that I could feel so strongly for people that I have never met.

But I keep coming back. I find comfort, love, support, humour and most of all understanding. You know, to be able to whine about something and feel all alone and then have someone tell you they have been through it too or they know how you feel often makes the world of difference for me. It may not improve my mood, and it may not be a person IRL, but it is *something*. And that *something* has often brought me out of some very dark and deep places.

I am so sorry that it is so hard for you right now. I know that there is little one can say that will bring you comfort right now.

I just want you to know that I do understand, I do care. That I don't know you simply does not matter.

I know about sad too. Oh yes, I know about sad too.

Take a break if it will help you ccl - who knows who will be here when you return, but you know what? Someone will be here. Someone will always be here.

BTW, it took strength of character to delete your previous thread. Be proud of yourself for doing that.

You are a good person!