I'm having a really hard time dealing with life. My Dad passed away suddenly in Dec. Then in Feb I had a missed misscarriage. 3 weeks after that my boyfriend broke up with me. There has been this girl who has been a problem in our relationship since pretty much the begining. They have never met only chatted on yahoo im and maybe a few phone calls. He said he wanted to see if they could ever have something. So here I am feeling like a worthless person. He tells me this 3 weeks after we lost our baby A few weeks ago he said he he never gave us a chance to be happy and wanted to start over. Like a idiot I let him back in. I'm in CO and he's in AZ. I went to see him last week. We had a beautiful time. Talked a lot and made plans. I come home and he starts acting weird again. I'm a mess I'm so confused. I don't know what to do anymore. I have never loved anyone like i love him. I have never given myself completly to anyone else. I'm so lost. Why can't I ever be good enough for anyone.