a friend of mine, that I haven't seen in a long time, wants to visit me. I'd love to see her, but I'm so ashamed of how I look. I look a lot different than she remembers. Of course she says she doesn't care, (what else would she say), but I do.

I just don't want to see the look in her eyes, that I give myself everyday.

B4 my mom came to visit, I told her "I'm aware of my weight gain, I'm unhappy enough about it, I don't need any comments from you". I thought, ok, I'm protecting myself, by letting her know b4hand.

Not saying anything was really eating away at her, because a couple off days later she says, "I know you didn't want me to say anything, but what happened?".

I was like, so I'm so shockingly disgusting that EVEN at my request, your compelled to say something. UGHH...I feel silly, stupid, but at the same time seeing my friend is causing me such anxiety, that i feel myself mentally shutting down. HELP