BEACHCHICK3: I know just what you mean. My creativity is also very precious to me. So for most of my life I've taken no meds. When I would fall into an especially bad depression I'd go to the doc, get antidepressants, and quit taking them as soon as I felt better. That was my pattern.

I thought my brain was my best buddy, and I wanted to take good care of it and remain clearheaded. Over the years the docs kept telling me gently that obviously my plan wasn't working, that I needed to take antidepressants permanently. I didn't want to hear that.

So my story is that I had a tiger by the tail, an uncontrolled mood disorder, which galloped through my life, leaving it looking like a war zone.

You might want to consider medicating your mood disorder before it turns on you.



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