I'm probably hypo-manic as I'm off my meds for 5 or 6 weeks now. I'm managing to control around people but when on my own they come alive and I struggle to shut down. I'm having to live 2 lives. 1 life being around people and 1 life being alone.

-Talkative have urges to just talk forever
- Diddling my feet and moving around and pacing
- Irritation people irritate me
- self harming slightly
- 10 + hours sleep a night
- Talking to myself and people I see
- Listening to loud music
- Writing lots
- Loud (apparently)
- Singing/whistling/humming
- Singing hymns, saying prayers, looking them up on Google and YouTube
- Feeling gooooood
- Hyper
- Little obsessed over things

I had a talk with my team and they say they can't force me to go back on my meds but advise I do. I just can't, I've been gagging on my meds prior to stopping them. I have tried talking things through with my friend but she is ignoring me. So I give up. Oh well another one bites the dust