Feeling solipsistic. Like I'm God or the second coming of Jesus or something. I try not to entertain these thoughts but they give me anxiety.

I'm telling you that my environment isn't good and I want out. But I'm addicted to things and can't enjoy nature because of my mom and my past.

I'm deeply ****ed up and don't know what is real. It feels like psychosis.

My Invega injection is in a few days. I think it's the only thing that helps with this.

I might take an olanzepine but more could cause depersonalization. 5HT2A receptor antagonism is what I need. But I am very low in dopamine.

I feel alone - Like I'm in isolation. I want a good life and I'm trying but I'm in so much mental pain that I think about death often. I can feel demon type entities haunting me and that this is a simulation and there's a glitch in it.

I need to distract myself but I obsess and every single point I go to leads me back to the start - My past, trauma, existential dread, not having my way and not even knowing what I want - Wanting nothing but just to not exist so the pain will go away.