I feel so stressed it's hard to make myself eat. My days are getting boring and I do what I can.. feed cat, play guitar a bit, dishes. But I still have all my few things toppled around trying to figure out where my important paper work is etc. My son continues to be disrespectful.. it's a work in progress but if it comes to me always being treated like I'm nothing I'm going to have to make him find his own way. He's almost 20 and takes tantrums in stores and when alone with me. God help me find the right decisions