thanks guys but i feel so crap whilst binging that im not worthy enough of seeing anyone let alone a doc who would probably just tell me to go home and get some rest anyway (as have done before)

I do speak to a couple of friends intermittantly and an eating disorder practitoner / gp / therapist about it but they just seem to ask me why it happened and do i know why im feeling paliptations etc. everytime i say obviously its because of the binge/purge and i cant find it in myself to stop blah blah but they send me away the same everytime.

A couple of years ago a psychiatrist basically said im too fat for eating disorders clinic- my bmi was 20 and altho i was struggling with severe bulimia he was saying that only emaciated anorexics can use the clinic... i felt very disgruntled back then and still feel in stupid mindset that i have to get %#@&#! thin just to get any proper qualified help....

Christina, would be nice to chat, pm me if theres anything youd like to discuss ive pretty much had verbal diareah in this forum so please mail me anything about you
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