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I'm so sorry that you are overwhelmed. It sounds really difficult to be in physical pain, having physical function issue due to the surgery, and on top of that being afraid to be honest with the surgeon who makes you uncomfortable due to trauma.
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its understandable provided what you've been through. Is there anyone who can maybe advocate for you?