Hi.......I am new and I am terribly sad. I spent the past year putting a rare form of cancer into remission, while doing so lost my mother in law to a medical nightmare, only to learn that my wife of 25 years wanted a divorce. I never in a million years thought that my life would be like this yet, here I am. I still am struggling with post chemo side effects that take me from having a weak immune system to no immune system at all. Although I have returned to work, I cannot travel due to my immunity and have lost the support of my wife. She was a rock for me thru most of my treatment but, when she lost her mother, watched her change from caring and supportive to cold and distant. Our marriage was not good as relationships go but, we supported one another and were always there for our son. Once my wife’s mother had past, my wife began to soul search and withdrew from me. Thru retrospective review of myself via my counselor I have realized that what led our marriage to derailment ......it was the lack of vulnerability between my wife and I that I believe led us to the point. Not sharing our feelings openly led us to resentment and a lack of empathy for each other. It kills me that I never learned this from my parents. It was not until just the last few months that I have really begun to realize what I wanted in a partner and wife. I still cannot believe that I have lost my wife and will be selling our home. I want to cry because I still love my wife. Unfortunately, my wife does not have anything left to reciprocate. This past year was brutal. How should I feel? I am terribly sad that I was not able to be there for my wife. Our issues predated cancer but, sadly it was the cancer that made me realize what was important. There is a part of me that is angry......and a part of me that is just sad. I am really trying to cope with this but, at a total loss for words.......suggestions are welcome.