Currently in the middle of a panic. Literally just woke up 30 minutes ago. I went to sleep at 5 AM when I got home from work and woke up just now. I’m in a panic because I’m supposed to be working right now. I am way too upset to drive that far right now and I need to call in. I can’t really afford it and I can’t get a hold of an actual person to tell. All I have are options through the app so I’m doing the best I can. I’m compensating with vacation time and some personal time but all in all it’s not going to be enough. I just don’t wanna lose my job. I’m upset and I’m afraid I have a headache. I just need one day to go well. Damnit!

I can always go to HR and explain the situation tomorrow if need be, but I’ve got to calm down. One Unplanned missed day of work is not going to make me lose my job. I may get reprimanded but they have to establish a pattern i.e. at least twice I’m doing it before though considering It job Abandonment or what not. Plus I’m trying to call in. I’m not going to lose my no job. I gotta stick with that belief.

I feel like such a screwup. I have these opportunities to make my life better and I can’t even do what’s right to keep them in my life. Ugh!!