Got out of the hospital (not jail thankfully) earlier today for a manic/psychotic episode. Still a bit high and they didn't send over the damn Klonopin! Oooh, but they did send over the Cogentin that I haven't taken in months. Incompetent bastards. If I were in charge things would be much better, but no I can't even be trusted to drive a car at this point. Dammit. I wish they didn't make it so hard to become psychiatrists (not real doctors). I would be the best damn psychiatrist ever.

My cat is on his way out. He is 16. He has heart disease and while I was IP he had another episode of rapid breathing/panting. He also has these "episodes" where he doesnt walk straight and doesn't really use his hind legs normally. Feline cardiologist is 1.5 hours east while my little boy can hardly take the 10 minute drive to our vet. Since my ****king mom couldn't answer the call back from the vet today I have to call them back tomorrow. He's on meds for this, but I wonder if he could use a higher dose? He is between 35 and 40 breaths per minute right now/this evening completely relaxed. It's supposed to be under 30. I just hope he's not in much pain and that I can somehow help him.