This depression has been going on too long. I’ve been let down and abandoned too much and I can’t heal from it, especially since it keeps happening daily with h. My emotions about it swing by the hour. I keep trying to pretend nothing is wrong and think if I can act accordingly then all will be well, but I can’t. The sadness and anger doesn’t stop. The meds and therapy doesn’t help at all, has maybe made things worse. I don’t have the strength to end the bad marriage. I’m stuck and passively pray for divine intervention.

My h even made a vile joke about this website so that I should not want to participate anymore. He said he said it because the people on here have advised me to leave him.