Hello ARC: I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support for you.

One additional forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the Coping with Emotions forum. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/coping-with-emotions/

And then here are links to 7 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help:

Complicated Grief: How to Get Unstuck

Grief and Loss Quiz

How to Sit with Painful Emotions

Several Ways to Sit with Your Feelings

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/weigh...-with-sadness/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/unders...al-flashbacks/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...tional-wounds/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.