I was feeling really good until a bottle of cotton candy soda caused me to get nauseated during therapy today which caused my moods to go weird. Then the session ended up being like a high school sex education class instead. Now I have to explain in email that I’ve been getting high off melatonin and I’m trying to figure out how to do that without getting myself in a massive amount of trouble. She was asking routine questions and asked about the melatonin and if I had taken any and I said I had taken some but it wasn’t to hurt myself. Today was just weird in therapy. Productive. But weird. But I still feel alright overall. I just feel perhaps a bit elevated for some reason. She thinks there’s some risk taking behavior going on. I said I could relate to Heath Ledger. Meaning an accidental OD from prescription drugs. She for some reason thought I was talking about erotic asphyxiation but I firmly told her no. That was definitely not happening I had never even heard of that before. Then we got into more similar stuff. I don’t know I personally think there’s some more medical things going on since my pain from 2 weeks ago has returned in the same spots and I haven’t been careful at all. Plus I haven’t been too hungry lately.