Running was one of my go to mechanisms of escape, the other was taking enough pills to tranquilize a horse... That was my entire teenaged life, every few months running away from my feelings, and the fact that I felt trapped. (Feeling trapped is still a trigger for me, though not as intense as it once was...)

I was forced to change my coping mechanisms after I turned 19 because I had my daughter.

Not easy, and when she was old enough to comprehend what was going on, I had to let go of the last of my unhealthy ways coping... Breaking shyt until the rage wore off. [emoji1751]

Anyway, my point is 2 fold, I get wanting to run, and I get having to learn how not to act on that feeling.

I started DBT when I had to quit raging, it helped me alot since I needed to learn new coping mechanisms to deal with my overwhelming emotions.

Like they say, "When in doubt, go without" ... You are second guessing the option to run, that in itself is a good thing.
So go without running.

Maybe give DBT a try, if you can't get it from a T or group T, then there are a apps and worksheets you can download to work through on your own.

Also make a Pros and Cons list, that way you have physical evidence to reference the reasons why you have chosen to stick around.

I hope the need to run passes soon for you.