How do I not be so needy? I kept H up until 6 am talking about all my fears of seeing T and need to be reminded I'm real. I'm so scared because she's not squishy and will be making a decision whether I see pdoc earlier. I'm also extremely confused. What I don't understand is I know I'm wrong but I feel it's true. I mean I have parents, siblings, require food, meds, therapy, medical insurance other help. Let's face it if I was made I wouldn't have CP. The government certainly wouldn't recognize me as a person. I wouldn't find this confusing. We as a family need a higher level of care but I don't think that exists.