So, I have obviously been unstable for awhile, but the current issue is a return of my depression, maybe a 6-7 out of 10. I have been reflecting on my illness over the years and I realized this morning that in depression or psychosis these days, a new episode triggers all this terror and anguish kind of reliving old episodes that were awful. Had a super bad trip to Dallas once, not sure why I remember that one. Really painful, overwhelmed. Of course, I have no insight when hypo or manic, so it does not seem to happen then. Makes sense maybe.

Anyway, just wondering what others' experiences are. I am having difficulty with this in part because it is activating victim pathways and I don't want to be a victim. I wanna be a survivor.

Thnx!!!