Do you think it is possible, Diamond, that you could also have possibly a latent sex or love addiction lurking in your brain. If so, those things can be treated.

I have bp1 and have been clean and sober for 12 years. I must say, it concerns me that you make a distinction between alcohol and other drugs. It is a quite unconventional position in the recovery world. I do wonder whether even modest alcohol consumption in your bp 2 brain, an extremely abnormal brain--as is mine--i do worry that any alcohol could be disinhibiting you enough that risky ideas seem appealing. I'd quit drinking and see if it helps for a bit. Good luck!

Hugs!!