I don't know if it's PTSD, and I don't want to be too quick to slap another label on myself. However, I do have very strong recurring emotions about some episodes. The one that's freshest in my mind is when I was in a severe mixed state at the start of this year and couldn't get the help I needed because of covid. They left me in limbo for two months, I think, maybe it was even more. I was going completely out of my mind and was being stonewalled at every turn. Now just about everything seems to remind me of it and makes me cry or be very angry, and those thoughts and feelings just keep circling around in my head. It's not even just about their refusal to help me, but also about the betrayal of my trust and their apparent lack of giving a ****.