Wow, you obviously feel very stuck between a rock and a hard place with your job situation there, @pandabear0927. How awful, I feel your pain, friend. How much more torture can you bear at this place, I wonder! But yes, the fear of cutting ties is holding you back. I do understand that.

Just wanted you to know you're doing super well out there in the world really, a place I have great difficulty coping with, and I hope someone with some good advice will come along soon and post a helpful comment for you.

Hang in there pandabear0927, and stay hopeful. Things will get better for you soon! I do believe that.

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