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Old Aug 05, 2020, 05:45 PM
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Idk if it’s relative to my job or what??? Ive become self conscious and paranoid about screwing up, embarassing myself, or being unintentionally negligent?? I had an event about a month and a. Half ago Where two things back to back made my confidence absolutely tank. I was and still am being harassed at work and I felt like i was being stalked/watched( which i was) i had someone lie on me in the work place and even though i knew i didnt do anything wrong it still stressed me out because i was scolded by management. Im Constantly looking over my shoulder to where I started to believe “ what if i actually did or do something wrong??”... and again i hadnt done anything but this opened the door of what ifs because I had zero support in the situation....but now all of a sudden, it has Leaked into my personal life. I have developed This irrational fear of driving. Scared of hitting someone or something like a parked car. Even though I never come Close do doing so. But i still watch my mirrors like crazy. Ill take highways since I know theres no chance of hitting A Pedestrian or parked car. I’ve circled the block just to make sure If im on residential streets. I. Have been avoiding driving unless I absolutely need to. Ive never been this way. Id drive everywhere, anywhere, any time of the day,in familiar and unfamiliar territory. I want to be clear i have NEVER been in an accident nor. Have I ever come close. Idk exactly why I suddenly have this fear, but i suspect it is relative to the stress at work. But I am just at a loss because i dont want to become a hermit afraid of everything and never leave my home.. but suddenly things terrify me. I took time off from work and im actively looking for another job so hopefully that helps. But the issue is i need to travel to interviews... i have one tomorrow and im scared. I think ill be okay. But idk how to get my confidence back. Idk how to get back to where i was , comfortable, and anxiety free from driving. And yes, I do see a professional about my problems already..she’s convinced all my issues are about work, but how to break from these fears until im able to replace it... i just dont know...:’(
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