I had childhood fantasies but they weren't like others have shared.

I would fantasize that I was in a desperate situation that would put me into a state of giving up on life (either physical or emotional). then someone would enter this story that would try to convince me that life was worth living and that I was worth saving.

I'm so sorry if this triggers someone. I have had these dark thoughts for so long. I have tried to find a therapist who would stick with me with no success. Not sure where to turn at this point except to maybe open up to folks about what is really going on with me.

Thanks for listening.