I'm in a position at work where my mistakes are very visible. I feel like an idiot for each mistake I make. Maybe 2 or 3 a day.

Anyway, I freak out when someone (or I) discovers these mistakes. I'm so afraid of losing my job, even though I've working at this place for a long time. It just seems like the mistakes have escalated.

So I started taking Buspar last week, 10mg 2/day. To what degree does Buspar prevent or treat anxiety? Shouldn't I be feeling less anxious? Or is the anxiety just part of being too hard on myself and it will never go away until I deal with the self criticism. I wonder if the Buspar will ever work. I've been trying to deal with this self criticism and negative voice for YEARS. It's exhausting.

Today I did some deep breathing that helped at the time. Plus I took a long break from work.