I made a S action plan- that is I wrote a list of things I can do when feeling S. I lost it, but I could write another one. What I do is, if I am just feeling down and have SI I call my best friend and we talk and he is a voice of reason and sanity. Like once I told him I could fly and was going to attempt to do so and he said "No. You can't." We were on the phone. We talk almost every day and he keeps me this side of sanity. He is a very special friend.

I also think of my kids- what it would do to them if I died. My whole family, in fact. As you know,