Tomorrow is friday. I made it. I talk to my pdoc on monday so I get my sleep meds coming soon. I have no idea what or if I'm every going to be even able to try ketamine. That's a shame that insurance doesn't cover it. When janruary comes around i will talk to my insurance agency, and I will pester them for awhile, hoping to tel them how important it is.

Anhedonia is so bad. I feel bad for my coworkers because my social anhedonia is completely flat. I'm cut and dry.

Lately my mouth has begun to water around 330pm during work and it gets worse, until i feel a bit nauseous. I even got a migraine last night and i'm not even drinking alcohol. I hope my condition isn't getter worse. I might have done permemant damage... I wish I could know what exactly i can do to get better and what to avoid. Maybe it doesn't help that I don't really eat a lunch, but that's been the case for almost years. I have a bag of chip and a pop/tea. Anybody have ideas what could be wrong? I've been having good dinners with a protein, mutivitamin, fiber supplment (twice a day), and fishoil on top of it.