What I say: I love you and I know that time apart will help us to both work on our own issues. We are going to be better people in the long run. I miss you and I miss us being together. You will be just fine dealing with the co-dependency. You are going to be better off later.

What I REALLY want to say: Pleeeease come back. I will never let my bipolar rule my life ever again. I will never explode again. I love you more than I love anything or anyone. I am so lost without you. I feel lifeless without you here. My alters are missing you so very very very much. They blame me for everything. They hate me and wish they were with you.


I don't want him to feel like I am just saying things to get him back...mainly cuz that is what I feel like doing, but I really really really am a complete and utter mess without him here. I know he will be back one day in the future, but I need him NOW!

BJ