I really wanted to chat to my team about it but chickened out so the 11th will just have to do.

I understand I'm going to need to be savvy re my health and its gonna be a lot of work. I hope I'm up for it though. I do worry I'm going to muck it all up and end up worse off than I currently am.

I feel this last 7 weeks have been a rollercoaster of a ride. I'm not depressed or anything its more the hyperness. I'm currently feeling great, calm, mellow, free. But i have been hyper religious, possibly psychotic, definitely hypo-manic maybe not manic yet??, irritable, I've self harmed, fidgetty, itching to talk, talkative, talking to myself and people I see, sleep up and down, antsy... think there are more but thats all I can remember.

Oh and researching like mad