I have not slept in 24+ hours. I am not manic. I am just devastated. I’m beginning to believe the insomnia from the last month has been related to everything I’ve just concluded.

I have been listening to tv shows with my eyes closed just so I can at least relax my eyes. Haven’t fallen asleep yet. Will definitely be taking a sedative tonight, be it ambien or seroquel, whatever I can get my hands on first. I need to not be awake and thinking for a few hours.

Calling pharmacy now. ****ers. Better have my god damn meds.