I've try med free. psychosis and self harm is not something that can be dealt with with out lots of support. Ie day program/daily therapy, structured program. You have to make your own daily program. Is there a support group you can go to daily? Can a caretaker come in daily to help you care for yourself and your apartment? Is there vocational rehab to help you work to develop a schedule? What are your goals that you can focus on? I would have a serious talk about how much you are unwilling to take medication and why? What can make you change your mind?