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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
@ everyone who asked: I am only allowed to use this one particular pharmacy chain as per my insurance. If I want to use the other big name in my town, I have to pay out of pocket. If go to a grocery store pharmacy, I can probably buy depakote for 20-30 dollars. Which is the route I may go, honestly.
However, my problems right now are only compounded by lack of medication, not caused by it. My complete crack in reality is due to my disturbing revelation.
Even now I feel completely disconnected. I wanted to scream at RS to get the **** away from me, just leave and never ****ing come back. I don’t want him to touch me, to look at me. I don’t want to hear he loves me. It just makes me vulnerable. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know what I’m meant to do. I want to disappear.
I know I’m being incredibly irrational and maybe I’m just overreacting, maybe things really were t that bad. Maybe it was all in my head and I’m twisting things to make myself look better.
I am unhinged. I’m hoping knocking myself out for a few hours will restore sone sense of calm. |
I hope you get your medication soon. Your idea of paying out of pocket, if it is somewhat reasonably priced, sounds like a good plan. These horrible feelings will pass when you're back on track with your medications. In the meantime, sending hugs.
I think it is horrible that insurance companies have such power over the people in the US. It's not right. in my book. Not right at all! There are ways to change that. It doesn't even matter what political party a person is a member of. If all of the people say "No more!" it will have to change.