Sorry to hear about your predicament. I have gotten healthier by getting gastric bypass and that really limits how much I can eat. I should exercise more. I have been out for awhile but I haven't met anyone. I don't even know where to start. I've never been in love or a real relationship. I might have been in love but the other person never knew about it and is straight. As far as meds, shrinks and psychiatrists, I have been doing all of that 27 years. I'm low key and a high function depressed person. I'm not happy one second and then extremely down. I'm mellow. I tell people I haven't been happy since I really was a kid or in high school. I have moments but not happy, living life like people do because they have things going on in their life. They have a job, family, friends and what have you. I don't have that. I have an idea where you are, I am here to talk.