(((((((((Court)))))))),

Take your mother out of the picture for a moment in time while you think about you. She doesn't exist not do her thoughts.

What kind of person do you want to be. Do you want to be a successful person who is capacle of excelling in school, college, a career, a professional who is respected for what she is capable of being & doing with the talents that God has given you?

Do you want to get up every morning....feeling sick until you can get a drink down your throat to make you feel better so you can just function to get ready to go to work....not a career...just a job.....then having people who know you, or your own family if you get to that point...having that Drunk Mom that is out of control & the only control in her life is her drinking?

Yes, it may only be a phase that you are going through, but the problem with alcohol is that you dont know if your body is capable of becoming an alcoholic until you have already been drinking & it has you in it's grasps (unless you have any alcoholicism in your family & then you know the chances are great that's where you will end up. Why do you want to put yourself & your future into that position...for your own good & not caring what anyone thinks.....what do you want for yourself.

What kind of person do you want to be because in the long run....what you want is the only thing that will make you happy.

I was the straight A student with parents that didn't care how I did. I had to choose success because I saw a family around me that wasn't successful & I lived my life or what I wanted....luckily, what I wanted was the college degree, & the career. I could have put the same determination into choosing to do the things that would make me a bad person (drinking, drugs....etc). We all have determination....it's just what we choose to apply it to that determines how successful we will be in the rest of our lives & some of those choices we make at the age you are now have consequenses that we don't end up liking when we look back at them....but at the time we were reacting to someone like our Mother who made us angry & we wanted to make sure that we did the things they didn't want us to do (even if we didn't let them know about it) because it gives us a sense of power to feel in control of something...anything....even if it's not a good thing, when what we would have really wanted for ourselves is the good.

This is a voice from a lot of self experoences & I care about what you are going through because I understand your feelings.

Make your choices for he RIGHT reasons,
Debbie