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Originally Posted by cogladaid
You ever feel sometimes that things are too good?
I have a good job. I’m studying successfully. I have a balanced mental state. Everything is going good despite there being a pandemic going on.
Inside my mind it wants to push a reset button. Wants me to go off my meds and go crazy. Be delusional and starving myself and washing my hands obsessively worried that if I don’t something bad will happen.
I don’t want that. By mind drifts to it. Wants the chaos. I wish these thoughts would just go away.
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You're doing good! Don't worry.. What you're doing is enough and absolutely great! I wish I could get to that point - I'm getting there. Sometimes I feel the way you do and just want to go nuts - That's my main feeling when I want to take 'something' that will make me lose control...
It gets us no where. I've spent long years out of control. In the back of our minds, we're always like "I need to let go and just go straight into the abyss of mental illness".. But the abyss is hell.. It is also love.. And you can find it with the opposite...