I took the full 50mg of seroquel in a desperate bid for sleep. Could have easily slept well into the afternoon but we’re having a small bbq today so I forced myself awake at 11am. Twelve hours of sleep. Thank god. I still feel groggy and disconnected but I don’t feel as frantic and chaotic.

I conceded defeat and switched my prescription to another location of the pharmacy, 25 minutes away. They’ll have it ready soon. When I see my pdoc next, I will remind her a) write 90 day prescriptions and b) send it to my insurance mail order program. Then, hopefully, I can avoid all this ********.

Somehow I’ve lost five pounds since Wednesday. I don’t expect that to last, I suspect it’s because I’m off depakote. But I was losing roughly 1lb per week with a controlled diet even on the depakote so even if I gain it back I have confidence I will slowly get to where I want to be.