How do you come to terms with the fact you'll always have symptoms? I'm realizing I've been "sick" in one way or another for over a year. I'm good at hiding it but I've been jumping from one delusional/paranoid thought to another. That's on top of my normal anxiety/paranoia of people and being left alone. I've been on high AP meds most of that time. I don't want to live like this. I don't know how to fix me. I'm actually scared. I don't know if I'm ever stable. I'm better then I was 5 years ago. Even then I was better then I was as a teen. I don't want to change my meds and take the chance I'll be really bad. I don't know how to be honest while paranoid and it looks like high anxiety. How do I accept the way I am or how do I change it?