I have said this before, you need to be honest with your health care team.
You are still young and have a full life ahead of you.
These are things to talk about with a therapist.
I am sorry you are so anxious.
Try to remember that we are under covid restrictions.because there is a real threat to catching the virus or the flu or any number of air borne bacteria.
The disease will run its course and they will be having a vaccine as soon as possible.
much love to you
bizi