My course has been the opposite of yours. Hid it and somehow worked until about age 40. 56 now. Had a few stable yrs while longterm IP, but last 3 yrs, sicker than ever been. Much.

I accept I have an incurable brain illness that very little is known about. I make small goals. Live in the present. And trust that God has my back I haver sure tried to have His.

Hugs.