hi, everyone..i know that things havent been great with me for a while and im tired of talking to everyone around me and they not understanding me. im up and down all the time..thoughts racing through my mind. Things were great a few years ago, now i cant do anything...i cant keep a job and most days i dont feel like going anywhere. the beginning of the year i decided to start seeing a doc and just yesterday was prescribed some meds. i fell like im alone and its been nice reading the other postings and realising im not actually alone...sometimes i feel like im losing my mind...i think i do dumb stuff all the time and maybe for a while i was trying to figure out what was wrong with me...i feel like im pretending...i feel like there are different sides to me and i dont know which one is me...im tired of thinking and hearing myself speak i dont like anything thats coming out and im really scared. if anyone has suggestions or advice i would wecome anything.