I was abused as a child mentally, physically and sexually by my former step-father. But the statute of limitations is up. He has also abused others that I know of before me. His stepdaughters and step son from his first marriage. (The stepson wasn't abused sexually)

What is on my mind a lot right now is a man I was in a relationship with that sexually assaulted me. I have a protection order against him and have stood up for myself finally. But he has appealed it so one of the presiding Judges of the court house will hear the appeal but that's two more months away and I get stressed about it.

The revision hearing (Appeal) was supposed to be in July but he failed to submit some things that he needed to so that hearing was cancelled and later rescheduled when he got the transcripts from the original hearing submitted by his second lawyer. So now I have to wait longer instead of getting it over with. The Protection Order is in place for now.

I am concerned as to why he is fighting so hard when he claims that he has no desire to have contact with me again. He even insists that multiple experts are necessary to evaluate me because of my mental health. This is never done for civil protection orders, this is not a criminal trial and will not go on his criminal record unless he violates the order and is convicted of that. He has lied in his written statements and verbal testimony for the original hearing including when he contacted me last.

We have not been in a relationship since 2018 but I have had problems with him this year.

He has even said that my religion is the problem causing me guilt for being with him sexually.

A supervising detective for a unit where I live refused to have my case investigated because he doesn't feel that what happened is criminal and he blames my accusations on my mental health and religion because he talked to my abuser and he did not discuss these issues with me or ask me. The detective had an attitude about my religion from the moment I told him how I feel about sex before marriage and the detective said that I didn't want a particular sex act that happened because of my religion even after I corrected him.

The above shows bias and prejudice on the detective's part and he questioned my motives in reporting all after I worked up the courage to report it.

I also have a serious medical issue for which I'm having surgery soon. This is all weighing on my mind at the same time.

My faith and mental health and medical treatment is keeping me going.

Well, I just thought that I would share.