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Originally Posted by bpcyclist
Whatever the correct label, why do yo think you minimize the negative impact and huge risk of substances in your life? That sounds like me before I figured it out.
More than 40ish percent of bp and even more w scza have substance issues. What wld be so terrible if u were like the rest of so many of us? I have been clean 12 yrs. It is almost impossible to find bp stability using nonprescribed substances. I tried alcohol, opiates, cocaine--all they did was make me sicker and prolong the anguish.
Smart recovery people will tell you--addicts quit when they are done. Not a moment sooner. If they don't die first. I hope you figure this out.
Be well!
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I probably minimize because practically everyone in my family uses the same substances I do. It just doesn't seem like a big deal. My cousin recently OD'd (survived) and everyone just reacted like "okay, maybe swallow that percocet instead of snorting it next time ya dumbass"
Well, my dad smokes weed and takes percocets and he works and makes money no problem. I know I'm more like my cousin than my dad. I think it's okay if I go out like my aunt (suicide by opiate od). If they could handle that they could handle an accidental fatal OD (which I don't even think is going to happen anyways). I'm cool with getting off a planet full of rapists and abusers.
Okay. I'm an addict. What next? I take the rest of my oxys over the next week, stop that until the next surgery or broken bone. I honestly don't think I could stop smoking weed just because it's something I do with my father so neither of us are violent. Both of us are without it.
I mean, if literally no one including the people I live with, my treatment team, and the evaluators at the hospital think I have a problem, is the problem really that bad?