I probably minimize because practically everyone in my family uses the same substances I do. It just doesn't seem like a big deal. My cousin recently OD'd (survived) and everyone just reacted like "okay, maybe swallow that percocet instead of snorting it next time ya dumbass"
Well, my dad smokes weed and takes percocets and he works and makes money no problem. I know I'm more like my cousin than my dad. I think it's okay if I go out like my aunt (suicide by opiate od). If they could handle that they could handle an accidental fatal OD (which I don't even think is going to happen anyways). I'm cool with getting off a planet full of rapists and abusers.
Okay. I'm an addict. What next? I take the rest of my oxys over the next week, stop that until the next surgery or broken bone. I honestly don't think I could stop smoking weed just because it's something I do with my father so neither of us are violent. Both of us are without it.
I mean, if literally no one including the people I live with, my treatment team, and the evaluators at the hospital think I have a problem, is the problem really that bad?