“Just be yourself” easier said than done. I find myself constantly wearing a “mask” just to get through the day. And I dont just mean fake a smile if I’m upset I mean literally everything. Being social, the way I talk to people, the things I like around people, the things I think, what I wear, my mannerisms, how I walk, rconstantly doing what is “acceptable” or expected of me rather than who I actually am whether it be for the time, place, my age, etc.. Not that it’s anything bad?( who I am) , but like... just avoiding the judgement as it can literally cost friends, family, a job, etc. just not worth it ...it’s exhausting, it’s depressing... and It sucks:/... but i feel it’s taking a toll on me mentally... I just really wanted to vent about it [emoji17].... sorry..
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