I recently did something good for myself. I was able to schedule a doctor's appointment that I've been putting off for a few years because of generally bad mental health/feelings of worthlessness ("I don't deserve medical care," blah blah that kind of thing). I shared this news with my friend because I was happy and wanted to celebrate with someone. They said they were proud of me but it sounded kind of lukewarm. A short while later they started sharing some of their own personal issues with me. I tried to make them feel better and gave them some advice but I feel kinda like ****. We've both had hard lives but almost every time I share something good happening in my life they immediately share something bad and need my help/advice. I don't mind helping them but to be honest I feel really disappointed. I wish I could just celebrate with someone and have a moment about me. That's a huge mental shift for me since I used to hate any kind of attention or self-positivity, and it hurts to feel like my success gets brushed off so quickly. I don't want to make my friend feel bad if I point it out but I also feel like they tend to make things about themselves when I'm trying to be happy about my small victories. Idk.
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call me fish. he/him pronouns.
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