For the last 2 years or so, my life has gone down hill. From finding out I have mental health issues, to my kids moving out, loosing the only friend I had, loosing my job, now loosing my cat because I can't afford to pay it anymore and now I am about to loose my relationship.

I've lost control of my life and everything is slipping away. It's so scary to be here. To talk to people, no-one seems to understand how heartbreaking it is. To watch your life fall apart and not be able to do anything about it. To try and talk to your partner, to watch him slip further and further away. I feel so alone theses days, I try so hard to make things right but everything I seem to touch, I just keep making it worse. It's feels good to get this off my chest. I can't really talk to anyone anymore. I feels good to just be sad and not try to hold everything together so I can try to keep what I have left.