Fear never really held me back from trying to do the things I wanted. I always just went for it, and usually succeeded. Now my problem is being unable to do the things I want because of bipolar, that's one of the most frustrating things about it. I used to be a private pilot but I haven't been able to fly in years because I'm just too unstable and tired. I guess I miss that the most. I hope to get stable enough to be able to do that again.