Had a good session with my T I guess it was good anyway. We talked about hurt and anger. She said my Mom was abusive when I was a child which I have said but it's not great hearing someone else say it and it wasn't really my Mom's fault. She had undiagnosed bipolar. She was doing the best she could. T said my Dad was neglectful. My Dad is a saint. I don't know. Rubbed me the wrong way. But the stuff about hurt and anger was interesting. She says I have layers of it. That's why I'm so self destructive.


Showed her some scars from when I was in the hospital. Finally got her to understand that it wasn't that bad and the ER doctor just flipped out. Still have to write him a letter not to send it but to get my feelings out or something. Worked on it. Got stuck. Deleted. Have to start over. Oh well.